Showing posts with label transformation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label transformation. Show all posts

Friday, August 14, 2020

On Time

    I was in the process of writing a post based on a prompt I read from Poets&Writers magazine. The prompt was to create a nonfiction document that covered key events over the past twelve months. Out of fear of divulging too much of my personal history with a public audience, I deviated from the topic and began an analogy between physical and personal growth. That post remained imcomplete and I subsequently deleted it to write this one. My goal is to now complete this current post in one sitting.

    One concept I have grappled with is time. Therefore I will write about it in this post. I gained my inspiration from a sermon I heard today on the very topic. Between the magazine's writing prompt, today's sermon, and the month-long blog post that got deleted, I decided that I have found an opportunity to address this issue directly in this post.

    There are two main things I have learned about time: the concept of it is relative and the reality of it can only be measured. Time as a concept is relative to one's own experiences and present reality. A person's awareness of this concept does not verify its reality. Time moves regardless of whether it is acknowledged. However, one's awareness of time shapes one's relationship with time. I believe that how one perceives time also ultimately shapes how one chooses to go about life's other decisions. This may be debatable, for there are circumstances that do not always stem from personal choice. However, the decision to make an act on a choice is also a by-product of one's concept of time.

    Time as a measurable concept allows one to own and make decisions. If one understands the measurement of time, one can decide for oneself what to do with allotted time. Time is measured whether or not one is aware or actively measuring. The earth revolves, the sun rises and sets, living organisms reproduce and die. Even without numerical awareness, the events take place. With numerical awareness, conscious decisions can take place.

    On a personal level, I have experienced time both as an observer and active participant. I have observed years, days, and weeks pass by. I have observed the numbers on the clocks change, children growing older, and the physiological effects of the adults in my life aging. I have passively witnessed death and mourned the lives of those who are dear to me. As an observer, I learned that no one is immune to the effects of time.

   I have been both a willing and unwilling active participant of the measurement time. I have documented every birthday since my 15th year outside my mother's womb. I have counted down the time on the clock, computing the amount of hours before a dreadful task ends or an anticipated event begins. I have written down goals and tracked my progress. I have created schedules of my own and followed schedules created for me by others. In my active participation I have learned that as an individual, I have the power to choose what I do with and how I measure time.

    I have heard many wonderful quotes about time as it relates to the experience of time. I also have a few favorites. I could share them all here, but it would require me to search for them and in the process of searching, this too may become another unfinished post. Since I enjoy thinking and playing words, I will complete this post with a sumation of every quote or phrase I heard, seen, read, or thought of regarding the concept and measurement of time.

     Life is a summary of every experience, from the moment of conception to the moment one's last breath is exhaled. This universe is the only permanence we know and our existence in it is fleeting. For every beginning there is an end, and for every ending there was a beginning. Time is endless, for it lives on in memories.

May your time be well spent.

Thursday, July 24, 2014

My Vision for the World

        When I was first prompted to think of my vision for the world, I was slightly taken aback. It was not a subject that I put much conscious thought into. Rather it was something that I felt to ask myself subconsciously and one that would be automatic in my actions. My vision came to me first a few minutes after I was prompted. I closed my eyes and envisioned the "perfect" world. From that, I came up with five words: abundace, unity, peace, love, and acceptance. Again, I was asked that question. This time, by a friend. Since those five words became my statement, I sputtered them out automatically. My friend's feedback led me to revisit the question of "What is My Vision for this world?"
         One day, as I was walking home, I came to a standstill as many thoughts rushed through my mind. In front of me were trees and I was in awe at the peace it brought me to be still with the trees. As my thoughts faded, I regained clarity. When my mind was clear, I was able to experience peace. True deep peace. In that peace I also found my vision statement: I stand for a world where everyone is at peace with themselves, each other, and the Earth. Once I acknowledged my vision, I was able to get grounded and walk home in my new found peace.
       Through meditation and an abundance of support from my reading assignments, peers, friends, and soul-searching diary entries, I also came to find my purpose. My why. The answer to my questions of "Why am I here, God? Why me?" I came to find that my purpose is to bring joy and be love. Being love requires 100% of my participation. I get to be grounded in my vision and be present to all those around me. My purpose is to bring joy to everyone that I encounter. To use the light within me and shine it, so that others may also see theirs.
         Bringing joy and being love work hand in hand. I can personally only bring joy, true joy, when I allow the love inside my heart to radiate through me. When I allow the spirit of love which dwells within me to thrive and soar, I find that I give joy effortlessly. When I do fulfill my purpose, I find that I am at greater peace with myself. I also find that I am forgiving and at peace with those around me. I find that it is much easier to communicate with those around me in a way that supports them. I find that I can truly empathize, understand, and provide a listening ear. I am able to truly give my 100% in everything else that I do because I brought joy to a room and shared my  love energy.
        As I embark my journey into midwifery and professional writing, I get to remind myself of who I am, the world I stand for, and the gifts that I get to share with others. I am a perfect, amazing, loving, authentic woman who gets to stand for a world where people are at peace with themselves and as a result, are at peace with others and with nature. In a world like that, I get to share my joy with others and be the source of love.
          This process is truly challenging and rewarding. When one truly creates the time to connect with the inner self, the spirit, one gets to find who it is they are and what it is they are here to create. I know that I have no control over what others do or think or experience. I also know that if I want to see a world where everyone is at peace with themselves and each other, that I must be the one to be at peace with myself, others, and nature. If I am going to bring joy and be love, I must first love myself and bring joy into my life. I get to live the contract that I created for myself. The new definition that I formed as my identity so that love flows out and peace radiates around. My vision starts with me. Our vision, our unity, starts with us.